Dear Little Blog
Don’t worry, I know that I haven’t been here for a little while and that some people are probably thinking that I have dropped off the face of the earth but it is not so. It has been feeling slightly like that though lately with all the changes and things that have been happening and although no one has died, immigrated etc, to me it almost feels that way!
In the past week B, hubby and I have moved house and although most of the people who know me might not know this, but I have a thing about structured chaos! Now you might be thinking “what the hell?” and I can even hear my one bestie Francois saying this but if things are too much out of sync, I get a little wobbly especially if I haven’t got a clue where ¾ of things are. I can handle ¼ J this means that on the weekend this mama plans on unpacking (long story as to why I haven’t) and getting some normality back. I can see that it has been affecting little B too so action plan is to be made.
I also turned 30 and while some say that 30 is the “dirty thirties” I have been having issues with it aka I had the “turning 30 blues”. I still feel 18 and now and then I have to remind myself that I am not! Can one have two mid-life crises? I had one at 24 as I felt my life wasn’t where I wanted it to be on and by the following birthday it was so 25 was a breeze. So I officially had a mini one again! Oh well! I must say that the day itself was very special besides the fact that the wind messed with my well planned party décor and made me a little upset at first but hey, it’s about the people, not the décor and so I picked myself up and carried on. I realised that I have very special people in my life and while they are all different, they all have big spaces in my heart and I love them all dearly! I can’t imagine life without one of them and I thank the Lord everyday for each and every one of them.
The past few days have been full of challenges for me with more change (I need to ease into some things, others I jump in with both feet) and this mama has even worn coloured nail polish for a week! I normally only do clear, pink or French manicure and this week I have been sporting red fingernails! Toenails are not a problem and are always different colours but fingernails are usually as above mentioned so this is another way that I have been embracing change. Things have been blocked by incorrect infomation given and this has been causing panic for me, one person has played mind games with me and hurt me quite badly but I have gotten through it all and while I may still have a scar or two internally, this mama is starting to get back to “normal”. I have made my lists of things to do, starting to climb out of my little hole and I feel almost like a meerkat making sure that the area is clear before darting like a mad thing to the next spot.
So Little Blog, I’m back for good and with all the planning that I have been doing, things should be back to normal in the next few days and you will hear more about what has been happening!
Have you ever had a “mid-life crisis?