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Crazy World

The past few months has been crazy world of ups, downs, joy, happiness and just plain madness. Work has been manically hectic and there has been a few nights that I have worked late or even gone in on a Friday night to sort out problems. Most nights I have been passing out by 21:30 / 22:00 and this from a night owl! I was offered another job, got the position and convinced to stay with my present company by the powers that be. One of my colleagues also died and it has been quite hard to say the least! As you can imagine, I have been a bit of a stress ball!

Also started studying again but often I look at the books and decide that it will be done tomorrow nigh…..Getting it done is hard after working a full day but I need to book to do my exam in the next month or three so I have time *gulp*

I am pretty lucky in that I have seven days of leave that will expire if I don’t take them. For a work –aholic this is going to be interesting but I am actually SO happy for once as I need some good old me time. So Madame is taking her vouchers she got for her birthday and having her hair cut and nails done tomorrow and just spending some good old me time. Add coffee, a good book and a fun, out of my routine event tomorrow night and it will be pretty close to being perfect! I promise to try not to worry about work.

I have also done a lot of thinking the past while and cried a good few tears. The whole thing with Mr Green really hurt, I am still in love with him but mostly I miss my friend. The most messed up part is that this whole ending is based on an assumption without all the relevant facts or a proper face to face discussion and that is what irritates me. Thank God I know he and his friends don’t read blogs hehehehe.

A dear friend says that I need to look up and see the other guys around me, in the crazy world of dating, that are trying to get my attention but to be honest I am not interested right now.  A friend is trying to convince me that I need to go on a date with his friend as we are perfect for each other and we will get along like a house on fire. It’s not that I don’t see them, I am not blind but I would rather heal properly than jump into something and then all hell breaks loose. I went on Tinder for all of two days and deleted the app. For me to say I love someone romantically is pretty hectic in my books and it’s the first time in 4 years that it has happened.

In between all this I get a Facebook friend request. From He Who Shall Not Be Named (as he is called by my besties) or my Nemesis as I call him.  After all the circles we ran around each other he sends me a request now. Are. You. Shitting. Me? I nearly fell off my chair when I saw that one!  Mr Dolphin, Nick and Tin Man have been really amazing and check up on me all the time to make sure I am ok. Mr Dolphin has had a few late night discussions with me on the merits of things and I am really grateful to him for being such a sweetie pie. I am trying to move on in my way and I when I am healed completely at least it will be on my terms.

Crazy World Silver lining…

I have discovered a new hobby, made some really nice friends and I am planning a weekend/night away with the girls! We are also going to enter in an obstacle race and 5km race so we are getting there. There is an attempt to entice me to do a 42km race. This dear reformed couch potatoe likes the small distances and races where I can walk in between!  B is doing really really well at school and I am Super Super proud of her! She is getting so tall and is almost as long as me!! She has been such a sweetie pie and growing into a beautiful young lady!

Well that’ it for now, sleep tight and don’t let the bed bugs bite!

 

 

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Rainbows and storm clouds

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hello little blog! I have missed you and I am sorry that I have been so quiet but so much has been happening in my life that I was scared that if I started writing, I would not stop and your page would be filled with a million thoughts.

So much has happened since I last wrote to you. Some of them have been good, some have been bad and some have smashed my little heart into pieces. But I’ve picked the pieces up, taped them back together and tried hard not to show how it hurts. I am stronger than I think and boy has that been tested this year! It has been a few months of rainbows and storm clouds!

Since we last spoke, I have done the Impi Challenge 2013,and our theme was Spyder Pigs all 12km of it and made it through pretty reasonably considering I didn’t manage to get as fit as I thought! I crawled under barbed wire, crawled through a sewerage pipe that had water in, jumped off a 3m ledge into a freezing dam and I finished the race! I did it! Little old couch potato over here did it for me!

Impi Challenge 2013

 

B is getting older and I threw a party for her at her school this year and she was so happy that I was there that she refused to allow me to sit anywhere else but right next to her and kept smiling at me and saying “My Mommy is here” and telling all the other children! My baby is 3 now and her birthday was quite hard for me but I made sure that my princess knew that she was loved by everyone around her and gave up a few things so that she could have a weekend that she would remember. I don’t know where the time has gone.

She also went for her first ad for a catalogue and I was sooo proud of her! She was so good and listened to the people. My little princess is turning into a little girl and although it still breaks my heart when she hurts or curls into my lap and needs an extra cuddle when she is sad, we have gotten to the point where she will tell me how she feels.  Getting her dressed in the mornings has become extra interesting as she now wants a say in what she wears so some days she does go to school with shoes that don’t match her outfit but I am teaching her how to make choices for herself. Sometimes it’s still hard doing this by myself but I have a great support system that love us dearly and gives me guidance.

The past few months people have played with my emotions, played me against other people, tried to use me as a pawn and this has been very very hard for me. People made choices and broke my heart but I have learnt some very hard lessons, things that I never thought that they would be forced to do. Some days it makes me very sad but you know what little blog, I am working with it step by step and when it feels like I don’t have any more strength, I look at my little girl and I remember what her name means (“God’s promise”) and I remember that I am not alone. I’ve had to deal with things that I would not wish on my worst enemy but have found strength in her, my friends and most of all my family.  When it gets too much for me I remember who was has been there and I love each and every one of them with more than they will ever know.

So what I am trying to say little blog, is that I am back, I won’t leave you alone again because I think you need me as much as I need you. 2014 is going to be an amazing year and together we will get through this. Thanks to all the people that send emails or tweets asking how I am, you are amazing and all your prodding has reminded me that I need to write, if not only for me but for those of you who seem to not feel so alone by my writing. You are never alone! Always remember that! So here is to the end of 2013 and the Christmas season and to the start of an amazing 2014.

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