The past few months has been crazy world of ups, downs, joy, happiness and just plain madness. Work has been manically hectic and there has been a few nights that I have worked late or even gone in on a Friday night to sort out problems. Most nights I have been passing out by 21:30 / 22:00 and this from a night owl! I was offered another job, got the position and convinced to stay with my present company by the powers that be. One of my colleagues also died and it has been quite hard to say the least! As you can imagine, I have been a bit of a stress ball!
Also started studying again but often I look at the books and decide that it will be done tomorrow nigh…..Getting it done is hard after working a full day but I need to book to do my exam in the next month or three so I have time *gulp*
I am pretty lucky in that I have seven days of leave that will expire if I don’t take them. For a work –aholic this is going to be interesting but I am actually SO happy for once as I need some good old me time. So Madame is taking her vouchers she got for her birthday and having her hair cut and nails done tomorrow and just spending some good old me time. Add coffee, a good book and a fun, out of my routine event tomorrow night and it will be pretty close to being perfect! I promise to try not to worry about work.
I have also done a lot of thinking the past while and cried a good few tears. The whole thing with Mr Green really hurt, I am still in love with him but mostly I miss my friend. The most messed up part is that this whole ending is based on an assumption without all the relevant facts or a proper face to face discussion and that is what irritates me. Thank God I know he and his friends don’t read blogs hehehehe.
A dear friend says that I need to look up and see the other guys around me, in the crazy world of dating, that are trying to get my attention but to be honest I am not interested right now. A friend is trying to convince me that I need to go on a date with his friend as we are perfect for each other and we will get along like a house on fire. It’s not that I don’t see them, I am not blind but I would rather heal properly than jump into something and then all hell breaks loose. I went on Tinder for all of two days and deleted the app. For me to say I love someone romantically is pretty hectic in my books and it’s the first time in 4 years that it has happened.
In between all this I get a Facebook friend request. From He Who Shall Not Be Named (as he is called by my besties) or my Nemesis as I call him. After all the circles we ran around each other he sends me a request now. Are. You. Shitting. Me? I nearly fell off my chair when I saw that one! Mr Dolphin, Nick and Tin Man have been really amazing and check up on me all the time to make sure I am ok. Mr Dolphin has had a few late night discussions with me on the merits of things and I am really grateful to him for being such a sweetie pie. I am trying to move on in my way and I when I am healed completely at least it will be on my terms.
Crazy World Silver lining…
I have discovered a new hobby, made some really nice friends and I am planning a weekend/night away with the girls! We are also going to enter in an obstacle race and 5km race so we are getting there. There is an attempt to entice me to do a 42km race. This dear reformed couch potatoe likes the small distances and races where I can walk in between! B is doing really really well at school and I am Super Super proud of her! She is getting so tall and is almost as long as me!! She has been such a sweetie pie and growing into a beautiful young lady!
Well that’ it for now, sleep tight and don’t let the bed bugs bite!